it's coming out tonight [week 52]

Last song! I'm finally free of my cage! I am really liking this one.

I want to know you
I want to know your mouth
I want to know your hand
With mine and without

Under my hair are the things you said
I'll keep them safe and I won't be read
But oh, it's coming out tonight

I want to tell you
I want to clear the air
I want to seal my fate
Even if you don't care

Under my hands are your little moves
I'll keep them safe and I won't be uncouth
But oh, it's coming out tonight

You could forget your name
I will do the same
We could be gone by light
And be us by night

Oh, it's coming out tonight

dream number 7 - [week 51]

a song about a dream that didn't happen.

Me and your ghost hanging out in the parking lot
Drinking the alcohol left in your car
I say to him do you like what you see
He gives me his cheek
But he looks just like me

You were a man I thought that you might be good
Till he lifts up my skirt just to give me some room
I try to slap him but you know he's not there
My hand's coming back at me
Through his thin air

Up rides a mouse on a bike with his friend
But his friend is a cat and I want to tell him
But the mouse is all smiles and I can't break his heart
And the cat stares at me like he'll rip me apart

Me and your ghost hanging out in the parking lot
Watching the bicycle scribble away
I say to him that I need to go home
But he's already gone
And I'm all alone

how are you [week 50]

Is it safe to say nobody gives a shit?

You're about as good as nothing
And despite what I do, it's growning
And I talk to it in the light like you're supposed to do
Whispering things I wish you would say
Like how are you
How are you
How are you
How are you

I am on the sidelines like I should be
It's not like you lied or promised anything
But I think of you fighting the things you're supposed to do
Walking this way, then you say
How are you
How are you
How are you
How are you

Let's just be real about this whole thing
It's nothing
Let's just be real about life
They're watching
And I'm drinking the wine in hopes I forget myself
Maybe in time I won't need such shitty help

Not like it matters
Not like it matters
Not like it matters

the bitterness of it all [week 49]

So after getting bit in the face by a dog this week, I've had zero motivation. Therefore this song is the positively latest it can be.
My life is spiraling right now.

Even when you come on strongly
I shy away
Even when I'm sad and lonely
I can't today
The bitterness of it all
I tuck in your hand
Close your fingers down upon it
Looking at you now
I think I understand
I could never be open

If you were some stormy weather
I'd be the bay
Hunker down when you pass by me
Watch you fade away
But I kind of like the rain
And I kind of think you're saying
I am what you're really wanting
I made it up in my head
Late at night in bed
Now it's forever haunting

You, you go away
Come again some other day
You, you go away
Maybe some other day

more commonly known [week 48]

It seems lately that I have to sneak these songs into my busy schedule. Still, I like this one.
I'm feeling so inferior lately in everything that I do. My biggest fear in life is that I am a fake.

More commonly known
As your stepping stone
Usually perched on
The tree in your front lawn

Hunters come and they want me, want me
You will find it's that same way for you one day

I'm singing songs
As you walk out at dawn
Humming a killer hook
Maybe I'll snare a look

Guitar players come and they want me
You will find it's that same way for you one day

I'm leaning over
The edge of your shoulder
Come on, come on
Come on, come on

Hunters come and they want me, want me
Guitar players come and they want me
You will find it's that same way for you one day

hungry [week 47]

So fucking exhausted by my schedule. Here's yet another one.

Like I don't know anything
Like you like my suffering
Like I'm singing someone's song
Like I'm getting it all wrong
You're hungry

Funny statements after dark
When you're driving in my car
I should keep my big mouth shut
You should know you're not that fun
You're hungry

[You'd say you don't mean it
You'd say you'll make it up to me
Back when I was just a girl
I used to think that we'd
Fall out of the open air
And always be sunny]

Like that word has crossed your mind
Maybe more than a million times
Like I've played it in my head
Like I've changed my mind instead
You're hungry

love comma me [week 46]

I love this one. I wrote it in my car on the way home from picking up some film today. Sometimes those are the best ones; the ones based on a vision of a song.

Someone
Meant well
Someone meant well
I don't care
Can't you tell

These are
Stories
These are stories
I don't care
Boring

{That's messed up dude
That's messed up dude
That's messed up dude
That's messed up dude}

Let's be
Together
Let's be together
Not much better

I've made
Mistakes
I've made mistakes
How many more can you take

{That's messed up dude
That's messed up dude
That's messed up dude
That's messed up dude}

Love
Comma
Love comma me

Love
Comma
Love comma me